writing into the bracket sunshine long time pauses in to the knowingsdo i must i see where i am going to know that it is lovely reflection water pooling themes of life gone by do i have connection to ancestry do i have connection to self is there something to show for the long pause is there something to show for the freedom and the rest the freedom and the absence there is something to the almot repeetition no autocorrect though thoughts will come and go though thoughts will and arrive in the dust of expectations i would say no back spaces but that feels like a committment that sighs deep as ocean ocean ocean oshun is a name i had come to love and know like and as honey i s i sacrificed everything i had in that movement movement movement the stutter least wise is a sign of a good time don’t you think or know that when you lose your punctuation to punch the bag that th’s the ime to depart from the partty how much more can you take if you’re already bloody and raw and one step ahead of yourself as it is and this i know little girl come here baby boy go spell your self into a new sense of completeness something that can’t be arbitrary even if it tried and it won’t go that far becasuse we have committments to keep like semicolon means pause and amperasand comes along for the win and the wind up to keep the connections strong and how fast can one lose themselves once they have loosed themselves tongues and lips and fingers all thinking outloud in a collaborative effort i want to short change myself i already know this form of creative expression isn’t entirely honest but it’s something might not pay the bills but it could if it were more focused something like texas touch texas toast i want all the butter and the ways to repent ccasionally we have to save drafts so as to keep the progress of reporting our exports after so long a silence so long a silence so long a silence wife balls and rifts and communication with communists comrade how much power is in the color red and what does it do to write in the echo chamber of 20 minutes and more the moon is happening in strawberries and the lansdcape of our colelctive imagination is something to ponder aint it don’t we love the way young people are consistently expressing themselves for the puruit of somethin i thinrk feel believe know that witing is important to me and that it is negliengce that i ahve not been doing it on a regular to daily basis for many reasons including typing speed including content creation including draining the brain to avoid draining it on to other people unnecessarily fix the fizzy pop rather than leaning into the champagne as the primary options have driving blind on this page so much as to remember what it’s like to be so some tiime type of way type ways waze is an app for those drivers allegedly there are many people that want to fuck me though there are less that i want to fuck and that seems appropriate based on genetics anatomy physiological possibilities the door is open and i can hear the sounds of the night time wafting into the apartment because that is what they are prone to doing the sound of night time air moving the mug of heavy air into coolness while a band i adore play son the phone on the couch next to my left thigh this is all an exercise in making something out of nothing something out of is this journaling question makes and if so is this writing that should be private and kept from the world maybe is an answer but it lacks commitment i have four tattoos and have said i don’t have an issue with that but that’s not entirely true smokes weed smokes elevation as the color green gives my self hazel eyes and remembers what it was like to long on the undergraduate college campus and to be told that i hmade the place look more like a college and university because i was bronzingg all the over the place i guess that was my lack of sense of respectability and a need for sunhinge to give me that vitamin d and every other letter that is more than a sexual euphemism dictionary the library gave em more than they could chew and i meant me too and two and to because smashing the sounds soul smashing the sounds together of different words is fun to do and i can glaze my eyes over and hope for the best that there is so much time on this clock right now and i am not aiming to be reflective accept except moon moon moon one hand sometimes can repeat the same letters and wonder what comes out oon theater side something beautiful i imagine checks the clock at the 3 minute and 40 second mark because 21 minutes of open space time has been so much for me to handle and to think that in the brain drain there might be room for spacing lessons but i also think that they have beauty in the bush that doesn’t back down and doesn’t look for a way to become more digestible tasteable to others there are those that ask me for money and don’t even think to pay it back and those are lessons in the form of young men and those a re mostly beautiful melanin rich individuals because that how much my tastes usually run it seems to be a vice at times timberland boots to know and knock on doors with feet with the bottoms the soles and souls in the back ground with clap back possibilities please fot the love of someone somebody come through for me to wring out that bell that tells me that i can i can finally just stop for the brief moment and i am glad that i am typing rather than writing and attempting to transcribe and i know there is a difference because of the feelings associated with pen in hand and i have most calluses to the lack of writing and researching