my sexual desires are queer

they may turn you colors 
and different levels of sensitivity

they are often aggressive 
in ways i can’t articulate 
outside of taking you 
through the process

they are often inclined to 
a level of dominance 
and competitiveness

they are adrenaline rushing, 
sometimes tasting copper from 
invisible but taste able blood 
drawing

they are using teeth 
intentionally

they might be 
somewhat reactionary

they seem to surprise the 
uninformed who judge by
stereotyped covers

my femininity of center, my 
androgyne, is caught in 
the middle 
confusing

my desires they are nail polish wearing 
beard growing doing "drag* for 
freedom and education

they are still dealing with 
anti-heterosexual 
angst moments

as far as i know without exception 
they don’t like* white people

they embrace the brown skinned aesthetic 
to the nth degree

they often preferably swim around 
in blackness

they like authentic organic noises of pleasure 
and lots and lots of cum
preferably both at the same time 
with body quivers

they like sensitive people 
who can take the potential for pain

they are often rough first 
and then softer when that urge 
has been satisfied

they like those who understand that 
liking to give pain doesn’t mean 
enjoying it in return

they sometimes are open to it 
but generally only in the context 
of a highly charged moment

my desires 
might use walls 
as a prop 

they turn colors easily due to light skin 
and don’t like to be a billboard 
because of that

they are 
not centered 
around penetration

in fact 
they generally 
avoid it

they are informed from having been 
penetrated many times and not neccesarily 
ever really truly liking it

they don’t like toys 
of any kind

they like making out, 
massage and cuddling

they do not identify 
with the dichotomy 
of top and bottom

they find the terms top and bottom 
to be oppressive and uninformative

they are growing 
and changing 
and evolving 

my desires masturbate 
physically, mentally 
and emotionally

they are open and 
potentially polyamorous

they have been with many people 
in many different ways and like to 
be aware of the who and the how

they are all a part of me 
and being ever more honest

they believe in humanity, respect, 
conversation, creativity, laughter, friendship 

they do not believe 
in no strings attached

they believe that safe sex is knowledgeable, 
protected, honest and consenting

they have not always been healthy 
and may not always be healthy now*

they are navigating some internalized shit 
that they don’t like but haven’t worked through yet*

they are hot and passion and hunger
they are a journey
they are a truth

Dec 24th, 2012 2:00:00 pm

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#Currentsea #Affirmation Song by Toni Jones

I was there then and I am here now.

reflecting: moons, mirror, waters:

reflect @ ions,

reflect @ ions,

reflect @ ions.

where am I?

days of yester he hymn his

scepter rod key

be and came in to me

in 2 me

states of pleasure and pains

mixing and ministering

additional materials.

calling forth

must be

what i know now

rather than being

stuck in the before,

stuck in the before,

:

struck

in the before

though black,

though chocolate,

though dark skinned,

though–

they have nothing in common

and

the overlapping

lapping as though

to never allow a wound to heal,

lapping as

to never allow a wound to heal,

lapping as

to never allow a wound to heal

:

i believe in the

cleanliness of my life

that i have done enuf werk

to work to know

that there are differences

between childhood

in the back of a closet

and the terror horror

and the now the full day light

the full day light

the full day light

:

step on out from all sides

claiming me and mine

as me and mine

kintsugi outside

of direct contact

kintsugi on a rap beat

:

rhythm and poetry

reifying

reifying

reifying

reeking with sweat

from hard work

can y’all hear me?

have i been heard?

finally finally

i let go the echos

in my own ears

i shift my own perspective

for my own peace

:

i let go the pieces of me

that need to be themselves

and

return to me

wholeness wholeness wholeness

wholeness

wholeness wholeness wholeness

wholeness

:

i rené renee rebirth

my self

because i can

and

that’s just what

i do

:

Ase o Ase o Ase

December 5th, 2021

Family She They Names

Isa Lee Love Jones René