Good morning "sir". 
how are you?

I hope you are divine and inspired 
because I know that I am filled with a fire at my core 
that has and is illuminating creative consciousnesses 
that desire to be expressions openly– 


truths.


So 
I need you to know 
some things:

you speak intertextually with one who has 
a mind of rich earthen intensities,

one who’s pathways 
of internal electricity have capacities 
of exploring and constructing 
lusciously intricate intimacies

all with the lubrication of imagination 
and a piece of external stimulation 
as a catalyst.

when you used those dots 
it got me real hot as my internality 
stirred, my… curiosity


aroused


from the top of my head 
to the base of my feet 
and everything in between.

if you know what I mean.

I rose with and like the sun
radiance pulsating through my pores until we 
climaxed at high noon 

leading to a leisurely stroll
to setting in the dusk.
but there truly has been no rest 
for these passionate ideas 

who form with the gentlest touch
of possibility from your ellipses.

every black ball to be put between lips,
tasted and or kissed in a pursuit of pleasure.

I wonder if you’ll miss your previous understandings 
of them or if you’ll embrace these new adventurous 
twists into how you experience the powers of punctuation.

of course, I would be remiss if I did not mention the phrase 
that came to me late at nightin a blaze:

is your head game 
strong?

as I contemplated the implications of your gentle 
and thorough fingering of my…scalp i wondered 
and wandered the planes of this body as 

physically manifested 
celestial geography.

I found an abundance of astral projections
potently playing among the flora and fauna 
of my sensitivities.

I want you to know 
that I caressed as many petals 
as I could before blooming– 

magnificent.

of course, 
there are less 
poetic ways 

of 
communicating, 
but I 
couldn’t help my self
from colorfully conversing 
inspired so 

heavily 

by what you would 
do to 
me.

I just had to let you know
there are things
that I would do 

to you, 
too.


PS: keep your breath deep and steady 
cause you’ll need all the air you can get 
when we each ask the other, 

“Are you ready?”

December 1st, 2015 — siiaah f. east

bruh. celibacy? makes you horny as a mug.

a vessel for all that hot energy to reverb.

god damn.

:

i was conversing with a sista friend and got reminded of this one time when a man drove in front of me while i was walking home to XULA, and rolled down his window to try and hand me a piece of tissue covered with his genital jewel juice and ask me what i was going to do with it and i said lol you’re funny and then he took it back and drove away apparently because i wasn’t gonna sniff it or eat it or whatever. man. that was the life and times of being thick light skinned late at night walking on a street in the New Orleans. don’t ask me when this happened but i know i wasn’t a fresh person no mo’. and i was coming home from a (different*) dick appointment where i don’t think anything penetrative happened, but it was still sexy magic. jesus be a fence and protect me from these foolish men who believe they are all that and a whole ass bag of chips and pan of high quality macaroni make you think some other thangs– lol. again i said what i said when i said what i said the first time. you’re welcome.

November 26th, 2021

Energy. Memories come back to me as they are ready to do so. Memories return to me as I am ready, and able to receive them. sexy sex sex as means to meditate, mediate, and medicate against the trauma trauma, the drama drama. i hadn’t thought of this incident in years, and it took conversations and BeLoved Love to show me that I didn’t find it sexy– that’s called coping and compartmentalization. This process of unpacking is like easter egg hunting as if placements by others only to realize that i am retracing my own steps for survival as i am the hunter and the placer all at the same time.

Question: hyper sexuality as a trauma response. discuss.

One answer: AfroSensuality. Sensuality with values/principles that made it* all make sense to me, fires and waters and all the streams of steams (both, between, beyond). I took the pains and poisons and aimed to turn them all into medicines for Self soothing and sometimes for others along the way– or to give credit proper, I have long compared others experiences to my own for learning as well as echo location for echo locution to find or make salutations to for soulutions. Emphasize that U– and why the red line appears underneath. Solutions: Sol ut ions vs Soul ut ions– the soul and or sun at an ionic level.

What becomes of these considerations?

December 5th, 2021

Family + She + They + Names

Mxs. Isa Lee Love Jones René